Human are weird animals...

Seriously, I don't know what's wrong with me. And why is it so hard for me to trust people? I've no idea...

When things just seems so wonderful and great, I start to question and doubt about all these....
I start to worry when small things happens, no matter is it about me or anyone else....

Sometimes, I just hate myself.

I can't keep my thoughts to myself, but I don't want to ruin any one's day if I say it out...

So... What's the matter?

ends at 1:48 PM

HELLO MY BLOG!

Have been going through lots of submission of projects. I can totally understand how pressurizing it is to be in Year 2. My grades will definitely drop:(

Gonna say that these few mths can said to be months of reflections. Seen that human being changes, especially feelings. Talking about trust, how far can you go with that word? Do people really trust each other? If yes, how? I just don't understand myself well enough. Thinking so much, sparing thoughts for people so much and end of the day, you just couldn't get the response you wanted. When we all think that we understand each other but bottom of our hearts we just don't understand how it feels like when you know that the one you loved don't feel the way you feel. It's something we can't describe, no matter how many masks you try to put on your face, it still can't cover how unhappy you actually feel. I tried to be generous and try to change the way i look at things but is this really me? Will i really feel happy? If there's someone there to feel the way i feel now, how great? I know i'm stubborn, but instead of asking for a change, why not question me?

Mutual trust?

I just don't get it...

ends at 10:55 PM

Stressssss

Tired! ccp,cb ij and faom projects done done.....
Mbs access proj, faom presentation, ccp end-sem test next week... Omg... All in one shot:( haven study yet:( gonna do it maybe tml? Tonight will be meeting linying cos in need for her lappy to do proj. Thanks! My lappy died ytd:(

So many things yet so little time... And this sem gonna end real soon! And my 3 mths holidays faster come pls...

Gonna do my drawings today. Some of it... Too many expired works. Gonna complete it to show teacher nxt week!!!

Ps: thurs was real fun! Hees:D

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:)

Seriously i'm tired! Gonna struggle through this crucial period! And i'll be a free man after that;D 3 mths of holidays! I can't wait to earn lots of money and do whatever i want:D I want to have good skin, slimmer and braces on. But saving money is more impt in order to fulfil what i want!

GOOD LUCK !

I need some sleep! NIGHT PEEPOO:D

It's gonna be thurs soon!

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Busy week. 2 projects submission this coming week. And lots to rush. Little time left.
I'm gonna miss the chance seeing show luo at scape tml! Plus! He will be looking after his shop for few hrs I guess! Cooool... but can't go. Having impt gp meeting! Critical period to complete our projects. Bye stage.

Don't give excuses. Sat.

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Faom is boring... And it's damn cold now... Teacher said that she's hot so... Endure the coldness:( lol.
Wondering what to eat alr... Haha.
Oh ya! I wasn't on time for lesson but before the 15 mins grace period...

Hungry~~

ends at 9:54 AM

JOGGER

Wow, impressed by myself today. Night jogging for almost 2 hrs (Y), most imptly; i resisted the temptation of having MAC! HAHAH! I love filet-o-fish. Gonna get that fish out of my mind now because under my house, there's 24hr MAC! FATS! Not gonna ruin my diet plan... Try not to eat fastfood + any other drinks except H2O! Feeling sleepy now. Should turn in now before i start to stone agn! AND! TML I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY FOR MY 9AM CLASS! Can't be late!

GOOD NIGHT PEEPOOO~

PS: Sat tml. Great. What to do. Life. Annoying.

ends at 2:15 AM

why, Why & WHY

Human being are weird creatures, so gonna admit this.
When we get what we wanted, we ask why.
When we can't what we wanted, we don't know why.
When things is going your way, you start to wonder what you exactly want in the first place.
There's no answer for what you really want, is what you really need that is matter.
Contented, not this word.

ends at 2:10 AM

Self reminder. Darn.

Peishan, you got to wake up now. Stop dreaming around. Always complete your drawing. Do projects! Study! Nothing else more! so stop being such a slacker!

ends at 2:27 PM

Confused.

I'm damn busy these days, projs submission is like few weeks more.

PS: I believed someone else can do a better job. I hope.

ends at 9:42 PM

Plans. Only when it works.

Okay, i'm in the mood of planning. Shall put it into action. Honestly, i know i have low self-esteem. Buti'm too use to forget about myself most of the time. I can forgot to pamper myself or sometimes think of myself. Things shouldn't work this way. Shall do smth abt this. I'm trying to carry out my plans... Such as exercising plan, diet plan and saving money plan[this is way harder than the 2 above]... HAHA! One of the reason why i need to work part time. Or else i'll spend more money which belong to my parents... I'm alr turning 19! So gonna be independent;D

PS: Okay i really need to focus on my stuff now. Nights peepoo:D

Oh ya!

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She's fierce:(

Lol! Was having marketing research just now and realized that the draft was in my lappy! Wasn't in my thumbdrive! So I called my sis for help but she's was gg out to sch alr! Try to please her but failed. She's fierce:( lol.
Now having ccp, boring~ yajun wasn't here either! Haha.

Gonna catch toy stories 3! :D

Anw visited Dr chan in the noon with yajun! Skin condition sucks. Eating pills which cost $2/- hope my face gets better. Okay I'm not having any skin diseases, just don't wanna my skin to get any worse... Cos projects are stressing me... Prepare for the battle~

Shall listen in class, bye PEEPOO.

ends at 4:50 PM

SKINNY, that's all i want now! HAHA!

ends at 11:49 PM

Random

It's been 3 months plus, i'm amazed that how feeling can fade so fast... It's great though. I'm fine now. Memories will always be in the past. Just remember those happy moments and life still have to move on. 5th, tomorrow. i once loved 5th because it's my payday, and anni in the past and now it's like nothing to me. Meaningless. After spending so many mths tgt and realized we made a great mistake in the past to even start because we are meant to be just friends. Friends.

What meant to be will always be.

ends at 11:42 AM

Am i even ready? Honestly i forgotten how to even love a person. I know it sounded stupid but...

ends at 10:56 AM

DARNDARNDARN

My sis can be really irritating at times. Just only she keep nagging me about the modem bla bla bla. Ask me to call up Singtel and recontract, i mean it's fine for me to use that thumbdrive first which so called belong to her. And I told her all my academic grades and there she goes again. Saying that i shouldn't even think of going uni if i don't have the interest in studying and get such a bad results. She's driving me crazy man! I'm alr so stressed up with tons of things and she gonna add more stress on me. Hello? Do i seem to you that i'm not even studying? Okay yes, i didn't try my best to do well during my mid sem. Fine, i'll put in my efforts for my projs and end sem tests? how is it?
I guess i really need someone to slap me on my face then i'll start to wake up and stop living in a world with nth in there. Fine, i'm really stressed up now. Thanks sis.

ends at 10:49 AM

My grades sucks. I'm such a failure at times. I just can't focus myself on smth which I wanted but yet I always choose to let it go...

I'm tired man. Projects due dates are near... Luckily my gp is organize or else extra stress. I'm at work now. Though I always try to be contented with what I have but there's always smth to pull me down... Shall not give myself pressure anymore... I've tried my best, must try even harder the next time...

Ps: watching eclipse later if there's time slot:)

ends at 9:17 PM

I don't get it...

I tried everything to make myself happy and trying to convince myself that life would be better even just slightly a little bit and I'll be contented.
Academic, life, love... All messed up... I mean I don't need anyone by my side and I don't mind fighting all alone but I just need smth great to make my day, that's all...
I only hope I can make it through. I know I won't stop trying but when will I really break down? I've no idea.
Tell me what to do and I'll be fine...

ends at 2:51 PM

Down

I'm tired... Both mentally and physically. Gonna go work after my sch today, because my boss needed help so... What exactly do i need? I start to wonder and doubt on myself... I know i shld be the one who understand best about myself but somehow i'm lost. I start to think that i don't even understand myslef and how am i gonna expect others to understand me? I feel that i'm selfish and it's so not me these days. Whee have the old peishan been? LOL. These are just some random thoughts i had now. I can't explain it how i'm feeling now but i know one day i'll understand what god is trying to tell or lead me. I shld think of nothing now and be myself...:D

Smiling has always been easier than explaining why you're sad...

PS: i hate to keep secret or lie, it's even harder than anything else.... I don't like to keep things to myself, feels terrible...

I hate myself when whatever things happen and i'll start to analyse for no reason, nonsense craps.

ends at 10:34 AM