Pei Shan's ♥♥♥

It's time to move on:)

2010-12-19T14:50:00.001+08:00

So I'm now blogging using wordpress!
If u want, link me @ peishansmile.wordpress.com

Bye blogger & Hello wordpressssss

2010-12-19T12:40:00.001+08:00

Okay I think I look awful/weird with braces. Perhaps because it's only the 2nd day putting it. But guess it all worthwhile if I could get those perfect teeth. Hehe.
I swear it's not pain for the extractions and putting the mental thingy on but it's the after effect whereby u feel ur teeth is aching. Like those bruises on ur body sometime, it just feel somehow like that.
If u ask me if I regret putting it? I've no idea yet. But it's really a process to see how much pain u can endure. And the best part is u CAN'T eat anything u want anymore. Have to pick all those soft food in order u won't feel the pain of biting/chewing food.

All the best braces

Dear diary.....

2010-12-17T13:01:00.001+08:00

I'll maintain my blog after my test in like 3 hrs time! Yea! Think of changing to wordpress because I feel that blogger kind of sucks, somehow. And don't call me noob cos I have not much idea about what's Tumblr is. Seems interesting so I'll figure it out during holiday:D woohoo!

PS: life's great now... And festive season is round the corner! Soooo excited to gather with all my loved ones and bf<3

AnP, will be nice okay? Kthxbyegdluck

2010-12-16T03:07:00.001+08:00

I might not be the best but I would at least try to accomplish what I wanted and not just wish for it...

I trust that belief is all it takes.

More than words

2010-12-16T03:03:00.001+08:00

It's a feeling that I can't explain.
There's just some connection between us... If I could meet u earlier, all those lonely and wasteful time will be worthwhile.

I'm glad that you are what I had prayed for all along. I've found it, what I've been searching for. More than just 'love'.

2010-12-15T18:46:00.001+08:00

Shall start my exercising plan:) hope can lose some weight during 2weeks break!

Fml

2010-12-14T15:40:00.001+08:00

I've been taking good care of my skin. Pimples popping out again. Wts. Stupid fever and all la. Zzzz. Going facial on fri. Hope it won't keep popping please la.

Simply sucks

2010-12-13T15:22:00.001+08:00

Okay I know I have to study because I missed damn lots of lects and I don't really rmb much. Yea, serve me right for not attending lect. So I'm considering not to skip any lect if possible. And I think I'm a troublesome girl, lending notes from friends which I think I'm annoying. Okay shall stop behaving like a slacker.(maybe I'm one)

Urgh! I just can't stop thinking about things that I'm gonna do after mid sem test. Going for night jog with bf, putting braces, cousin coming back from Taiwan with goodies, xmas eve with family and friends, Xmas day with love, new yr countdown, faster end bad 2010... Lots to do.

Okay first of all, I need to stop all those distractions(including blogging) and start my revision. Aiya, just sucks ttm.
Oh well, that's a typical student life which I'll yell for when I'm like working in the corporate world few years later.

Bless me to do well for my mid sem tests please!

2010-12-11T15:05:00.001+08:00

My bf is so funny~ loved

Lifetime

2010-12-08T22:07:00.001+08:00

Education is the only wealth that can never be spend. It will be with through out your entire life.

So, please study! PEISHAN

Rust

2010-12-07T04:41:00.001+08:00

I'm so gonna manage my blog after mid sem test. Because this small space of mine is neglected by me. No, I won't do this to you, blog. because I spent time writing my emotion out when I couldn't say it out.

Lol

Everytime

2010-12-07T04:38:00.001+08:00

I really feel so lucky or perhaps fortunate to actually left my past and moved on to present. Because after all those wasteful time, I gained nothing in the end. Literally nothing. It's not that I've given in a lot but it's just a greed thought that human have that I think is unfair. People like it when it's hard to get. But ask yourself; are you sure about that? Hard to get didn't mean u wanted it but it's about you missed a chance and seeking for another just to ease your false pain. But all the time and struggle didn't mean anything. Just cherish when there's still someone beside you.

I like it now, seriously. I love how my life changed since then. Every little thing of mine is noticed, I'm ordinary but special to someone. I'm contented:)

Thank you, god.

Blessed

2010-12-05T02:03:00.001+08:00

Everyday is so so great with you around:)
I hope it will never end...

Thanks love...

NEW ARRIVAL - STARDUST

2010-12-02T19:24:00.000+08:00

X'mas season! Get something unique for your loved ones:D

2010-12-02T18:50:00.000+08:00

Thinking of what to buy for someone you valued? Convey the message by buying gifts that has a meaning!

HOURSE AND HOURSESHOE CHARM

Meticulously crafted in 925 silver and encased in precious rhodium, each individual charm in our delightful collection possesses its own unique personality and energy.

Item code: R7HOR02U

SGD 70.00

RISIS STAR EARRING

A stylised orchid that is also the symbol for RISIS logo. Plated in precious rhodium.
Item code: R5RISPPU
SGD 46.00

2010-11-24T21:26:00.001+08:00

Sometimes in life, we are lost. Lost in our own feelings and thoughts...

Humans are different... But who will change for the word 'love'

2010-11-21T23:03:00.001+08:00

We live only once and I'm gonna do what I really want! Determination pls!

2010-11-21T22:56:00.001+08:00

Eyer! Darn! Tried so many ways to slim down! Doesn't seems to work very well. So from tml onwards I'll just eat fruits and oatmeal and hopefully last till Xmas and see if really there's a different.
I just wanna slim my thighs! Seriously!

Insane

2010-11-20T18:24:00.003+08:00

Perhaps I expected too much from myself. Not anyone else but myself. Starting of the year, I reflected a lot because of that incident. I'm not what I want myself to be. I wanted to change everything, everything in my life so that I can get the happiness back by myself. I thought it was easy...

Things wasn't smooth... I swear... It's like the toughest year I ever been through. I blamed myself and god for the unfair treatment. God took away everything. Almost everything;my loved ones... Grandmere's death is the most heartbreaking thing happened. Never felt so scared before.

However, things became so much better when Cn entered my life... Things wasn't that bad no matter what. Life's great. As a girl, all u need is concern. I have gotten mine. I'm contented.

It's me, I'm the only source that caused invisible stress to myself... I can't smile... Having to force it out sometimes because I don't wanna explain. No one can understand how I feel. Perhaps it's because I used to be a perfectionist. When I wrote just a wrong word, I'll just replace with a new paper and rewrite. It sounds crazy but that how weird I am last time. So I tend to expect a lot. Too much for me to even handle.

I should stop giving myself nonsense stress, seriously. Shall relax and love my life.

Oh! And it's the 1st! happy together my dear! He will be preparing smth nice after my work:D

Insane

2010-11-20T18:24:00.001+08:00

Dear

2010-11-14T16:21:00.001+08:00

Santa claus, I've been good this year:)
I have 3 wishes!
- I wanna get slimmer and no pimples pls.
- everyone is happy and healthy, esp my dear and family:)
- get braces done.!

Haha! Xmas <3

2010-11-08T15:46:00.001+08:00

Okay I'm gonna change blogger to wordpress since I seldom use comp and I'm soooooooo addicted/attached to my iPhone;p cos blogger can't pics using my phone so my blog is like so damn boring.

X'mas coming~

2010-11-02T15:39:00.001+08:00

It's 2010 Xmas and I'll be celebrating with love:) must think of some place to celebrate!!!

It's Been Good

2010-11-02T15:37:00.001+08:00

I'm treated really nicely by Bf. :D
I'm lucky somehow to found you on the way when I'm lost...

ily :)

Final farewell

2010-10-15T15:16:00.000+08:00

7 days of funeral.
Tml will be the last day. Honestly, sometimes i still don't wish to face the fact that i can no longer see my grandma ever again. I still remember how playful i were when i was still a kid and grandma always chase after us becuase we are too noisey. But as she became older, she no longer have the strength to even scold us. I know there's a part of my life was gone. I'll try my very best to study hard and get into uni. I think this might be the only thing i can do now. I'll stay strong.
I miss you, grandmere...

I love you Grandmere.

2010-10-11T03:37:00.001+08:00

I know it's coming... I'm living in fear since thurs night. My grandma was in icu since then. Every phone call makes me scare. It was a torture to have to decide between letting her live by relying on the machines or seeing her leave. At least she survived 3 more days to let me said my last words... I know she's suffering. I believe that she will be with my grandpa living in somewhere happier. I'll stay strong.
I love you.
R.I.P.

Cherish ur loved ones before it's too late.

Are you sure?

2010-10-09T11:39:00.001+08:00

I don't know whether you think too much or whatever. But I don't bother alr. All i want now is my grandma.

If u want smth so much then in the first place don't throw it away when u found smth else. After so long you still think that things that u threw is still there for u to claim back?
Someone or maybe everyone picked it up because it's unique and shldn't be thrown since it's smth great...

Sometimes it's not just about love, it's just because ppl don't want to accept and move on...

I made my mistake once but I learn to cherish my things. Learn my lesson. Learn to think before leaving anything behind because I can't afford to lose impt things, esp humans.

Dear god,

2010-10-09T11:23:00.001+08:00

Pls don't take my grandma away... I don't want... I know I'm selfish and she's suffering but can you pls pls let her recover. I hasn't talk to her... She's in coma when I reach hospital that night. She's my caring grandmere, I know I didn't always visit her. I'm sorry.
I will visit everyday after work, I hope she hear what I said. I hope there's miracle.
I wish to talk to her.

2010-10-07T17:16:00.003+08:00

It's exhausting. I'm tired. Really.
Time to make things right.

2010-10-07T17:16:00.001+08:00

Human can't be trusted. It's seriously lame, how ppl can mention the word 'trust' easily when they doesn't do what the word actually means...

Luck

2010-09-26T21:29:00.001+08:00

Thank god! No need to take any supp paper:) I didn't know that result was out ytd! I think it's because I don't have my lappy around and it seems like I'm out of this world for awhile. Haha.

There it goes.
Mbs: C
Consumer behavior: A
Mkting research: B+
Creative campaign proj: C+
Financial aspect of mkting: B
Freehand drawing: B
Apel and entrepreneur pass

7modules gone!

Half-died

2010-09-25T10:38:00.001+08:00

Last night is like the worst night. I can't fall asleep. When I sit up, I will feel like vomiting. I vomited for more than 5 times, having diarrhea too. Body temp very weird too. Feel cold for a moment then feel hot after that. Wth! Even water I also can't drink cos end up will vomit out. What's wrong! Supposed to work today but this morning I really couldn't take it so I took mc.
Feel like dying... My mom seen me in such a condition was worried. My lip is freaking red:/ now have to wait for the long queue to see doc with my mom. Legs feels wobbly:(

Wooooo

2010-09-21T19:27:00.001+08:00

Going sentosa hotel ! For what? I've no idea. Xinyi asked us to join them. Hope that it will be fun because it's being so long since I last step in sentosa(except for USS).
Appreciated.

Well, recently was busy with work. And having less time for myself. But it's all worthwhile IF I'm gonna save up those bucks. Watched some movies lately. The best is grown up. Going the distance quite nice too. Love watching movies!

To think of it, I'm gonna turn 19 on the 19th! Less than a mth time. Seriously I swear, time passed super duper fast. It's like crazy! I still rmb celebrating Xmas and counting down 2009... And now it's almost the end of sept!!!
Things changes over time. And now my life is so much diff as compared to the beginning of 2010. And I love it.

I seriously need to repair my lappy which died on me 2mths back. Was saying that I'm gonna repair and bla but it's still laying in my room! Lol!

Sorry for the long post because it's been ages since I last upload photos and all. blame iPhone cos I can't upload photos;(

Have a good night peepoo~

:)

2010-09-21T19:14:00.001+08:00

If everyday is as happy as today:)

Worthwhile

2010-09-19T13:04:00.001+08:00

It's like something beyond words...

Till now, I still don't know what should I do?

2010-09-17T16:47:00.001+08:00

I feel like crying:( really.
It's just scary.

How I wish this person wouldn't be the problem to us.

2010-09-17T14:48:00.001+08:00

Better not mess with my life.
It almost hit my limit already. Try harder.
Controlling my anger.
sucker.

2010-09-17T11:40:00.001+08:00

You are such a......

2010-09-11T13:57:00.001+08:00

I want to put braces! Can I can I? :( I don't like my teeth. Totally. But I would have to pay it myself :/ how to save? Lol. A big qns mark??? It's sooooo hard for me to save up. I was thinking of saving 20% of my pay last mth but now have to spend it because I have to buy a new pair of yrly lens. Unforeseen circumstances again.

Well, conclusion is that I don't think I can get my braces done before 2011 begins:/

2010-09-11T13:33:00.001+08:00

Perhaps life is fair somehow at this moment... When you lose something important in life, you will gain another one along the way, even better than what you lose in the beginning...

I guess and hope so...

Maybe... I would...

2010-09-09T18:18:00.001+08:00

I wouldn't give up...

2010-09-09T13:32:00.001+08:00

2010-09-08T11:33:00.003+08:00

Everything has a limit... Don't overdo it... Today, I don't want to stop you even though I could have do that...

I just hope that after some time, people will become more considerate...

2010-09-08T11:33:00.001+08:00

Everything has a limit... Don't overdo it... Today, I don't want to stop you even though I could have do that...

I just hope that after some time, people will become more considerate...

It's you, that's why...

2010-09-07T19:11:00.001+08:00

2010-09-07T03:26:00.001+08:00

All I want is honesty.

2010-09-07T01:53:00.001+08:00

It's great to have you around though it's silent now:) haha!

Good job

2010-09-05T18:12:00.001+08:00

I think I'm really crazy. This whole week except wedn, I've been working full day... It's really tiring. But I'm still able to hang on. It's rly rare to see myself so motivated to work so I shall see how long I can hold on! Haha!
What should buy on private sales? Lol.

2010-09-05T18:07:00.001+08:00

I know you are the right one but it's just the matter of time and someone...

2010-09-04T15:07:00.001+08:00

The issue is still there. I tried but...
How long will I have to wait?

Future tense

2010-09-02T11:22:00.001+08:00

Talking about my future, I've nothing much to say... Everything it's great now and I know it won't last... It all depends on me but I have no confidence that I can feel.....
The feeling simply sucks. How I truly feel inside, I think I'm not gonna say it out. I'll be fine. I'm pretty sure about it.

It's always been me.

2010-08-31T17:29:00.001+08:00

When I told you how I think or how I feel, it means that I tried my best not to hide any feeling towards you... If things doesn't work out because of anyone, don't blame me. It's my thoughts, just couldn't change it. I know I tried, at least.

Because I trusted someone's words which I think I'm dumb. Words is easily to type out. But actions prove that it's not true.

I don't think I would take a step back already. Way too much for me to handle.

2010-08-30T17:46:00.001+08:00

Good job peishan:) the past doesn't affect you anymore. I know you be fine. And yea! Hehe. I just feel too happy:)

It's gone~

2010-08-30T17:36:00.001+08:00

Teeeheee.... Getting a bike helmet? Cool. Thanks.

What comes around, goes around. When anyone treated you nice, be sure to treat them the same way they treated you. If they don't treat you right then you should ignore them.

Isetan private sales.

2010-08-30T17:27:00.001+08:00

On the 8th. Imagine working for 16 freaking hrs with lots of ppl and dust flying around. Can't stop thinking how tired I will be. At least I have a purpose to work hard:) or else i will be rotting at home. Lol.

Ps: seriously, what's wrong with me and 2010? Things just can't go my way. Well, that's life...

Contradicting ppl

2010-08-30T17:20:00.001+08:00

I don't need anyone to tell me what to do and all. What's the matter? Words are still just words. Don't talk if you are not gonna do what you said. Sucks.

2010-08-29T16:25:00.001+08:00

Trust me, history will repeat itself once again...
But I won't be the one suffering this time round...

Lol

2010-08-25T14:34:00.001+08:00

Ytd, found out smth but I don't really bother because it's the past and I'm out of it alr. As for now, I'm still quite happy with my life because I'm mostly working and seriously busy with a lot of things. So... I don't bother. Lol. No idea why telling me all the truth now. It doesn't matter much to me now.

Liar

2010-08-22T16:30:00.001+08:00

I always ask myself, what's wrong? Did I do any wrong to get treated this way? Am I being mean to anyone? Am I selfish?

I'm clear about this; I did spare thoughts for others. Always trying to hold on even though life's isn't great. I appear to be strong and happy because I don't want ppl to think that I'm so vulnerable... When I remain silent, doesn't mean my soul don't feel anything... Again and again, ppl break promises. Tell me what's trust. Define it. You wanted me to trust u but how to trust?

In the first place, I always give in to things that I think it's unfair. I always thought that ppl will treat me nice if I treat them nice too... So what's now? Funny isn't?

I did nth wrong. I'm just an ordinary girl. I'm just fighting for my own rights. For the last time. I can bear with all the nonsense in life. But not this time.

It's the last chance. Hold it or break it hard enough for me to hate you.
Thanks.

Human are weird animals...

2010-07-30T13:48:00.001+08:00

Seriously, I don't know what's wrong with me. And why is it so hard for me to trust people? I've no idea...

When things just seems so wonderful and great, I start to question and doubt about all these....
I start to worry when small things happens, no matter is it about me or anyone else....

Sometimes, I just hate myself.

I can't keep my thoughts to myself, but I don't want to ruin any one's day if I say it out...

So... What's the matter?

HELLO MY BLOG!

2010-07-24T22:55:00.000+08:00

Have been going through lots of submission of projects. I can totally understand how pressurizing it is to be in Year 2. My grades will definitely drop:(

Gonna say that these few mths can said to be months of reflections. Seen that human being changes, especially feelings. Talking about trust, how far can you go with that word? Do people really trust each other? If yes, how? I just don't understand myself well enough. Thinking so much, sparing thoughts for people so much and end of the day, you just couldn't get the response you wanted. When we all think that we understand each other but bottom of our hearts we just don't understand how it feels like when you know that the one you loved don't feel the way you feel. It's something we can't describe, no matter how many masks you try to put on your face, it still can't cover how unhappy you actually feel. I tried to be generous and try to change the way i look at things but is this really me? Will i really feel happy? If there's someone there to feel the way i feel now, how great? I know i'm stubborn, but instead of asking for a change, why not question me?

Mutual trust?

I just don't get it...

Stressssss

2010-07-17T13:07:00.001+08:00

Tired! ccp,cb ij and faom projects done done.....
Mbs access proj, faom presentation, ccp end-sem test next week... Omg... All in one shot:( haven study yet:( gonna do it maybe tml? Tonight will be meeting linying cos in need for her lappy to do proj. Thanks! My lappy died ytd:(

So many things yet so little time... And this sem gonna end real soon! And my 3 mths holidays faster come pls...

Gonna do my drawings today. Some of it... Too many expired works. Gonna complete it to show teacher nxt week!!!

Ps: thurs was real fun! Hees:D

:)

2010-07-13T01:02:00.000+08:00

Seriously i'm tired! Gonna struggle through this crucial period! And i'll be a free man after that;D 3 mths of holidays! I can't wait to earn lots of money and do whatever i want:D I want to have good skin, slimmer and braces on. But saving money is more impt in order to fulfil what i want!

GOOD LUCK !

I need some sleep! NIGHT PEEPOO:D

It's gonna be thurs soon!

2010-07-09T21:21:00.001+08:00

Busy week. 2 projects submission this coming week. And lots to rush. Little time left.
I'm gonna miss the chance seeing show luo at scape tml! Plus! He will be looking after his shop for few hrs I guess! Cooool... but can't go. Having impt gp meeting! Critical period to complete our projects. Bye stage.

Don't give excuses. Sat.

2010-07-09T09:54:00.001+08:00

Faom is boring... And it's damn cold now... Teacher said that she's hot so... Endure the coldness:( lol.
Wondering what to eat alr... Haha.
Oh ya! I wasn't on time for lesson but before the 15 mins grace period...

Hungry~~

JOGGER

2010-07-09T02:15:00.000+08:00

Wow, impressed by myself today. Night jogging for almost 2 hrs (Y), most imptly; i resisted the temptation of having MAC! HAHAH! I love filet-o-fish. Gonna get that fish out of my mind now because under my house, there's 24hr MAC! FATS! Not gonna ruin my diet plan... Try not to eat fastfood + any other drinks except H2O! Feeling sleepy now. Should turn in now before i start to stone agn! AND! TML I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY FOR MY 9AM CLASS! Can't be late!

GOOD NIGHT PEEPOOO~

PS: Sat tml. Great. What to do. Life. Annoying.

why, Why & WHY

2010-07-09T02:10:00.000+08:00

Human being are weird creatures, so gonna admit this.
When we get what we wanted, we ask why.
When we can't what we wanted, we don't know why.
When things is going your way, you start to wonder what you exactly want in the first place.
There's no answer for what you really want, is what you really need that is matter.
Contented, not this word.

Self reminder. Darn.

2010-07-08T14:27:00.001+08:00

Peishan, you got to wake up now. Stop dreaming around. Always complete your drawing. Do projects! Study! Nothing else more! so stop being such a slacker!

Confused.

2010-07-07T21:42:00.000+08:00

I'm getting back my diary from someone. Ask me how i feel now? Missing that feeling but it's not love. Just part of the memories which is so happy that i couldn't let it go... I knew that i've move on but certain parts in your life, it will just flash back some scenes when you are in some places where you've been with someone there before. How to phrase it in words? It's just some kind of feeling which brings you back to the past but you still gonna stay in the present. I don't know what exactly i'm feeling. But no matter what, there's no turning back when choice were made. Why would i turn back? When i know there's someone better...

I'm damn busy these days, projs submission is like few weeks more.

PS: I believed someone else can do a better job. I hope.

Plans. Only when it works.

2010-07-06T01:16:00.000+08:00

Okay, i'm in the mood of planning. Shall put it into action. Honestly, i know i have low self-esteem. Buti'm too use to forget about myself most of the time. I can forgot to pamper myself or sometimes think of myself. Things shouldn't work this way. Shall do smth abt this. I'm trying to carry out my plans... Such as exercising plan, diet plan and saving money plan[this is way harder than the 2 above]... HAHA! One of the reason why i need to work part time. Or else i'll spend more money which belong to my parents... I'm alr turning 19! So gonna be independent;D

PS: Okay i really need to focus on my stuff now. Nights peepoo:D

Oh ya!

Cakes from Icing Room (Y) HAHA!

She's fierce:(

2010-07-05T16:50:00.001+08:00

Lol! Was having marketing research just now and realized that the draft was in my lappy! Wasn't in my thumbdrive! So I called my sis for help but she's was gg out to sch alr! Try to please her but failed. She's fierce:( lol.
Now having ccp, boring~ yajun wasn't here either! Haha.

Gonna catch toy stories 3! :D

Anw visited Dr chan in the noon with yajun! Skin condition sucks. Eating pills which cost $2/- hope my face gets better. Okay I'm not having any skin diseases, just don't wanna my skin to get any worse... Cos projects are stressing me... Prepare for the battle~

Shall listen in class, bye PEEPOO.

2010-07-04T23:49:00.001+08:00

SKINNY, that's all i want now! HAHA!

Random

2010-07-04T11:42:00.000+08:00

It's been 3 months plus, i'm amazed that how feeling can fade so fast... It's great though. I'm fine now. Memories will always be in the past. Just remember those happy moments and life still have to move on. 5th, tomorrow. i once loved 5th because it's my payday, and anni in the past and now it's like nothing to me. Meaningless. After spending so many mths tgt and realized we made a great mistake in the past to even start because we are meant to be just friends. Friends.

What meant to be will always be.

2010-07-04T10:56:00.000+08:00

Am i even ready? Honestly i forgotten how to even love a person. I know it sounded stupid but...

DARNDARNDARN

2010-07-04T10:49:00.000+08:00

My sis can be really irritating at times. Just only she keep nagging me about the modem bla bla bla. Ask me to call up Singtel and recontract, i mean it's fine for me to use that thumbdrive first which so called belong to her. And I told her all my academic grades and there she goes again. Saying that i shouldn't even think of going uni if i don't have the interest in studying and get such a bad results. She's driving me crazy man! I'm alr so stressed up with tons of things and she gonna add more stress on me. Hello? Do i seem to you that i'm not even studying? Okay yes, i didn't try my best to do well during my mid sem. Fine, i'll put in my efforts for my projs and end sem tests? how is it?
I guess i really need someone to slap me on my face then i'll start to wake up and stop living in a world with nth in there. Fine, i'm really stressed up now. Thanks sis.

2010-07-02T21:17:00.001+08:00

My grades sucks. I'm such a failure at times. I just can't focus myself on smth which I wanted but yet I always choose to let it go...

I'm tired man. Projects due dates are near... Luckily my gp is organize or else extra stress. I'm at work now. Though I always try to be contented with what I have but there's always smth to pull me down... Shall not give myself pressure anymore... I've tried my best, must try even harder the next time...

Ps: watching eclipse later if there's time slot:)

I don't get it...

2010-07-01T14:51:00.001+08:00

I tried everything to make myself happy and trying to convince myself that life would be better even just slightly a little bit and I'll be contented.
Academic, life, love... All messed up... I mean I don't need anyone by my side and I don't mind fighting all alone but I just need smth great to make my day, that's all...
I only hope I can make it through. I know I won't stop trying but when will I really break down? I've no idea.
Tell me what to do and I'll be fine...

Down

2010-07-01T10:34:00.000+08:00

I'm tired... Both mentally and physically. Gonna go work after my sch today, because my boss needed help so... What exactly do i need? I start to wonder and doubt on myself... I know i shld be the one who understand best about myself but somehow i'm lost. I start to think that i don't even understand myslef and how am i gonna expect others to understand me? I feel that i'm selfish and it's so not me these days. Whee have the old peishan been? LOL. These are just some random thoughts i had now. I can't explain it how i'm feeling now but i know one day i'll understand what god is trying to tell or lead me. I shld think of nothing now and be myself...:D

Smiling has always been easier than explaining why you're sad...

PS: i hate to keep secret or lie, it's even harder than anything else.... I don't like to keep things to myself, feels terrible...

I hate myself when whatever things happen and i'll start to analyse for no reason, nonsense craps.

2010-06-30T16:42:00.001+08:00

If you’re trapped between your feelings & what other people think is right, always go for whatever makes you happy.

MBAss

2010-06-30T16:41:00.001+08:00

Okay 3 hrs of Microsoft access kills... Now at the lect and 1/2 of it is wasted by the lecturer who keep on nagging us to attend lect on time...bla bla bla... I hate Wednesday because it means that tml will be thurs and I'll be burning midnight oil to finish my freehand drawing assignment AGAIN! You know i always love to draw but I don't want to draw every donkey week! Oh no~

Darn my life! So boring and mundane... Expecting my holidays:D 5 more weeks and it's gonna be almost 3 mths long holidays! Woohoo~

"Its heart breaking when someone takes your heart, promises to care for it and then gives it back.....broken."

Ps: I always wanted the time to slow down but for this time round, I hope I can fast forward and finish everything:(

2010-06-27T01:16:00.002+08:00

Can life get any smoother?
i mean please?

Pls be fine!

2010-06-27T01:14:00.000+08:00

Wedding dinner that night:D At Sentosa but i don't rmb the name of the hotel! But it's a nice place with great ambience!

I love the washroom!

Got TV inside!

I know my dress looked like i didn't iron but i did! LOL

Eyebrows sucks though! Darn~

That night was great. I love witnessing happiness moments:D

PRAY HARD, My grandmere is in hospital now:( SHE MUST BE FINE PLS!

My blog is died...

2010-06-22T16:47:00.001+08:00

Okay, I'm busy... Haha. Yes, over nth. But still I'm busy to update my blog. Shall update maybe after one mth when I'm free I guess.

Hope life would be great.

2010-06-13T13:23:00.000+08:00

Okay I'm actually working now. But I'm so damn bored in Tamp. Don't like to be here for certain reasons. But whatever, I'm going town later on so bear awhile man...

I have been drinking water, like at least 2.5 litres a day. Cool. But the part where u have to keep going to washroom sucks. Shld just camp there. LOL. But I love drinking plenty of water now:D

next week it's really busy, here goes my plan:
Monday;work
Tuesday;work
Wednesday;MIG camp
Thursday;zooooooooooo
Friday;work in morning, 2m03 class outing
Saturday;BBQ @ yj's hse with 1B17
Sunday;work

there goes my holiday:( can I have more time pls?

After ytd, I can conclude that I'm kind of happy with my life now, though it's not perfect but so what? Haha!
Honestly to someone out there, i think you shld rly think for yourself first because the things you are holding on to is really not gonna be easy. And I'm done with all those nonsense. That's how I feel now.
In a r/s, there's no right or wrong but how you gonna handle things without losing yourself along the way.

Love don't last but trust do...

Peishan is a random person!

2010-06-11T19:45:00.000+08:00

Yea, I'm damn random.... I like to decide things last min. It's way bad though but i don't like to make plans ahead as in outings and all and didn't fulfil it and I'll be like dissappointed so..... That's the reason why I'm random...
Now I'm gonna do smth random which is going back to town which I just came back few hrs ago! Haha! My mood is back. I can't get angry over things for long because after awhile I'll think it's lame and funny, then I'll be fine again. It's kind if stupid-_-

Bye peepooo :D I'm not stuck at home! Yea!

2010-06-11T18:59:00.000+08:00

For the very first time, I went for an evening jog because I'm not in a good mood:( okay tordays outing was fun with grace they all. We had sukiyaki buffet and we were damn full + satisfied! First time trying raw salmon! Haha! Supposed to conduct surveys for namiki fountain pen though:) walked around town and headed home at 5 pm.

I had nth to do and was pissed of so...... I went for a jog at the park, 2000m of jog and I'm tired alr. Imagine I hasn't exercise for so damn long. Was having a little gastric pain so I stopped. Decided to climb stairs. 12 storey twice plus 7 storey of stairs up. Okay I'm so random. Thanks for affecting my mood though....

Grrrrrrrrrrrrr.............. Shld I go for another round?

I'm pissed off with myself tooooooooo:(

W-O-R-K

2010-06-11T00:37:00.001+08:00

I'm done with my ccp execution :D tml buffet! OMG! My diet plan! HOW???? And i didnt drink 2.5litre of water! Ignore one day ba! Plus, going to conduct survey tml in town and after that work:(

I have the urge to go jog now! Don't know why but it's pretty dark and scary outside at this time. So drop this thought ! HAHA!

Today was helping out in the office, wasn't a easy job though. Both hands are rough now! Looking at those stocks and price tags = headache! Honestly, my boss is pretty nice though.

Saturday gonna go do volunteering work, YEA! Helping kids! Hope i will be useful over there:D And WORK WORK WORK~ Boss needed help at this point of time:(

I need more time, why am i so busy when i'm suppose to be enjoying?

Show u guys those graphics which i somehow copy&paste + editing for my proj! Conserving native animals of singapore.

Okay, it's not THAT fantastic but i've put in a lot of time to do:D

PS: i have to go rest now!

What do i need actually? i'll figure it out when time goes by...... Hopefully?

I can't just give up without even trying:D

2010-06-09T22:54:00.000+08:00

I wanna SLIMMMMM~~~~~

Okay i'm obsessed over getting slimmer.... LOL! Well, i actually lost 0.8 kg but why everyone thot i put on weight? Damn! HAHA! Thinking of morning jogging since my ankle kind of better now. So, i'll try waking up earlier tml morning, probably at 7am? Before getting face cream from clinic and heading to work...... Gonna see how far my determination to slim down goes.......
This super short holiday is kind of busy and packed! But i still managed to catch 2 movies which i wanted to watch! Sex and the City2 and Prince of the Persia(SORRY YJ, I WATCHED ALR), supposed to watch with u! HAHA! Both movies were awesome! I feel like going Middle East too~

I think i need to stop giving myself anymore stress 'cos it will affect my mood and i don't wanna throw temper to anyone... I can do this!

Oh ya! I drank 2.5 litres of water today! WOW! Going washroom manymany times! LOL! This is part of my diet plan! Way to go man~ Though i really miss MCDONALDS AND ALL THOSE FRIED FOOD BUT........ can't spoil my plan!

PS: i'm gonna complete my CCP execution now, RIGHT NOW~!

C:

2010-06-06T11:25:00.002+08:00

Him = my motivation:D weee.....
To slim down
Improve myself
Study harder

I'm back to my normal self, must be motivated!

I think I'm those who will smile to myself whenever I think of any happy moments... LOL

I'm seriously rotting in Tamp and that's why I'm here blogging. Oh no.... 6 hrs to go:( gosh! I'm going crazy.
Oh ya! I'm so in love with lady antebellum! They rock!

Ps: I saw yanting just now in bus! Love her! :D

MISS

2010-06-06T01:18:00.002+08:00

WEEEEE! Fat face gonna gone soon hopefully!

And i miss universal studio:(

WHITE HSE!

CASTLE

He's in NS.... BORING!

LOOKALIKE COUPLE! OMG~

Okay, i'm leaving my blog on its own first.... Cos my modem plan is over and i'm lazy to upgrade it and i'm using the internet without knowing the charges! WAAHAAH!

PS: i missing someone:(

PSPS: I'm a happy girl now! who cares about the past! I've moved on! WEEE~~~~~~~

ROTTEN

2010-05-30T00:26:00.000+08:00

Make it a short one. I'm seriously very stress now! Over what? I have one whole list i think! LOL. My blog is officially died man! I didn't even on my lappy for 2 weeks i guess! Having term tests next whole week:( Gonna screw things up again! God bless me man~

Will start posting when life is not that busy......

2010-05-19T23:47:00.000+08:00

Tired~ I'm gaining fats! Ytd went to chomp chomp to eat supper! Tedric drove us there! I seriously need to wake up man, i have no sense of urgency. I'm now using my comp, though i ended my proj discussion online. I haven even complete my 10% or more assignment for my freehand drawing. I'm gonna do smth crazy, going down Mac to do my drawing now! I don't feel like staying at home and i have to get my bedroom drawing done by tonight~ Okay, crazy. Bye PEEPPOOOO!

I have no time to upload pics. busy person eh? HAHA! I need more time now!

2010-05-18T02:42:00.000+08:00

Okay i'm gonna change my attitude. I'm serious this time round. Even though i'm trying to control my temper and all but still i wasn't happy today:( Very disappointed with myself! Honestly how much i really know about myself? I seriously need to ask myself and do some reflections! Starts from now!

Was rather busy recently, but in a real good way:D Love it. HAHA! But i really miss HL, LY, XY, YT they all! I have been MIA for quite awhile! Sorry girls! <3 haha! Stayed over at YJ's hse on SAT! Was rather random but she really need someone to talk to so;D Was damn fun! Rushed hm after my work at 11pm and cabbed to her hse at 1am! Chatted a lot!

Went UNIVERSAL STUDIO SINGAPORE last sunday! Totally fun but missed the roller coaster which is the main attraction:( But overall was great:D $72 But was like sun tanning at the same time! Will be going another time to play the roller coaster! Will post pics cos mostly with YJ's bf!

PS: SHOW'S CONCERT ON SAT! OMG! TIME FLIES! HOPE IT'S GONNA BE DAMN GREAT!

Lazyyyyyy

2010-05-13T13:47:00.000+08:00

Okay I'm seriously lazy to post... But I'm excited! I'm
going to universal studio Singapore this Sunday! With skip, yj and her bf! Haha! Cool! Omg.... Hope it's fun man! So sad, he's going ns soon :( haha... But he's going to change to m1 so there's free call! Hahaha... Yajun now enjoying with her bf who will be in Singapore for a week:D nice! Haha... Now in project room! Gonna go for my drawing class soon and working later:D yea!

I'll listen and not gonna think too much :)

2010-05-11T01:07:00.001+08:00

PICS !

cute earpiece! HAHA

Day out with YJ:)

CCN DAY! TP!

JM 's 18th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Our cheer!

YJ's polaroid!!!!!!!!

FREE ROSE! THANKS WILSON!

Pretty babes:D

HANDNA!

YJ's damn nice!

Mine-_-

damn ugly fat face:) wahaha

@yj's hse! so fun!

I bought crocs slipper for my mom! She's very touched! ILOVEMOMMY!

DAY OUT on SUNDAY!

outside wisma!

We went to watch IP MAN 2, (Y) Nice! HAHA! Was fun ytd! YJ went home around 11 pm. Skip and i went for supper nearby my hse, prata! HAHA! Homed at 4am! :DDDDDDDDDDD

MANYMANYTICKETS! I realised i kept damn lots of these! It's double sided. LOL! Gonna keep aside and restart again:D

I'm a good girl today! I reached home early at 6.30pm and i actually packed my room! My mom gonna give me a hug for that! HA! I'm always lazy! Clean room, here i come! Gonna sleep soon!

GD NIGHT PEEPOO

Everything gonna be great;D

CCN! TP! CCN! TP!

2010-05-07T05:00:00.001+08:00

Okay, i know it's 5 am now... I was doing the flyer for my class :D We have CCN DAY LATER ON! WOOHOOOO! Last yr, my class din't do anything but this yea! We gonna sell "Fried MARS BARS" and ploraid too? I guess so! And we designed our very own tee to wear it tml! So support us! TP is 20 yrs old! Hope everything will be great and fun:D

Will update more when i'm free;D Anyway, town with yj was great! Going out soon again^^

GOOD MORNING PEEPOO, GOOD NIGHTS FOR ME!

This is the flyer! HAHA! Gonna print multiple of it to distribute later! JIA YOU!

Gosh, need to be in sch @ 9am!

PS: Lame blog, i'll get a good laugh... We shall see.... Karma...

2010-05-05T00:00:00.029+08:00

Supposingly today would be our 20 mths tgt, didn't understand how all these took place but who should i blame? All i can blame is our love wasn't strong enough... Such a small interruption can cause all these nonsenses stuff to reveal...
Building a trust, you took 5 years and destroying it, you took few months or i shall say few seconds... I know you too well, that's why i took all these for granted, same goes for you... I know what you are thinking right now,,, but i don't know why you are doing all these... It just don't seems like you... Fate is the word. We just can't control it... Let the nature take its course... I'm gonna stay as a friend, a good one... Just like how we were before... I know you tried to hold on to it but the situation don't allow us...
Just remember those many great moments together which no one can replace, even her...

2010-05-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

Okay, i shouldn't have drink cold drink, my cough just got worse! HAHA. Darn!

cough cough go away.....

2010-05-03T22:03:00.000+08:00

I've done my homework during work:D One more to go! Hees...

I think this is sucky but well, i don't wanna redo! HAHA! LAZY!

Was having bad itchy throat, even till now! Damn terrible... Hope it will be okay soon:)

I know this sounded like mountain tortoise but seriously i never eat this sweet before! Damn shoik when ur throat is itchy! Anyone having sore throat?!?! Come look for me and i'll give u one:D LOL!

Does aging relate with the size of ear hole? LOL! My ear holes getting bigger for don't-know-what reason! I didn't wear any thick earring to expand it! :(

Some lame laws/jokes to share! Well, discovered by cn from my apps... I seriously don't know that i have this apps! YJYJYJ! Go get one!!!!

This is funny!

AWWW, sweet isn't?

Wow! So if the husband can control the hair length of his wife! WOAH! Scary! What if the husband nvr say anything? The wife must keep their hair forever?

This one is pretty cool! I be a HK PR! LOL! This is specially for YAJUN! you have advantage over ur MR CHU! HHAHAAHHAAAHAHHAH

Drank cough syrup ytd night and i couldn't wake myself up this morning and i missed a lect! Bad student:( LOL! Went for my 2pm lessons:D Nth much though but i hope everyday will be a busy+happy one:D

PS: I gotten my stars back, i'm happy but.........................................................................whatever...

Coughing~~~

2010-05-02T20:31:00.002+08:00

Hello ppl! I've been offline for 2 days! Haha! Was busy:) since tonight I won't be home early so I shall post while working:) ytd was terrible, cough just gets worst... This morning was like weird,,, can't pull my body off my bed and was having a slight fever! Now feeling so much better... Though my throat still sucks, and I coughed blood this afternoon! Scary! Lol. I know I'll be better soon, I'm strong eh! Hahaha... Watched iron man 2! Damn nice! I wanna watch ip man 2! Woohoo... Gonna get my pay soon~~~~~

Have a early night peepoo... Cos tml is Monday... Monday blues.... Lol!